It's funny how we feel so much but cannot say a word.

回忆

2006-09-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

明天我会到NUS去。突然间令我对它有许多感觉。可能是因为我没什么机会回去了吧，所以它才可以让我这样一个对离开了地方就不留恋的人有所留恋。忽然我发觉我在那里留下了许多难忘的记忆。例如，我在engine那里和sq, caroline , zq一起赶cs3266得project，那时我第一次在学校留到那么迟。不敢相信我对学校这么没好感，对学业没热诚的人会在学校赶功课，为我的学业尽我最大的努力。现在回想起来却有一种微甜的滋味回荡在我的胸口。这是我第一次对一个地方有眷恋。我想这就是为什么人们都说大学是一个他们最有感觉和会议的地方吧。

突然想写些什么

2006-04-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

人有时候很奇怪，像我，虽然不知道想写些什么，但却又想写些什么。真矛盾。快毕业了反而舍不得。也不知道到底是舍不得什么。felt so screwed up too cause of my fyp. It didn't go well and tmr is the presentation. It is so important to me cause it determines my degree, whether is just a pass or merit.But it's strange that i'm not really feeling nervous or upset about, just screwed up. It's just like the understanding of something happened that's all.

don't know why

2005-11-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

These few days, i've been on a roller coaster....my feelings went up and down so drastically, even myself can't explain why.. I think maybe i'm having mood swings....i hate it...suddenly i'll feel very sad- not really sad but 胸口闷闷的。hai~

Stupid Mr. Danny Poo

2005-10-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

Gosh! I know I haven't been updating my blog for such a long time. That's because I was so busy beyond my expectation. Staying up to 3,4 am in the morning is 家常便饭. The worse of all is that despite i worked so hard for all my projects, I didn't manage to finished one of them. Never did i excepted, the worse had yet to come.....

For that project which i didn't finish, i had to present it to the assistant tutors for evaluation. I thought i could have died from humiliation, but luckily i knew one of the assistant tutors. So, i chosen the time slot when he's available. I knew I can never escape that so i thought that faster get over and done with it. But...人算不如天算, I encountered many little hinderance during and presentation. And towards the end, my lecturer MR DANNY POO passby ( he walks around to sort of invigilates the whole thing) and checks with my evaluator to see if anything is wrong. When he knew that i didn''t finished the project, he was like "HUH, hehe(sarcastically) never finished arh." and then he gave that kind of despisng look to me... My God! I really hated him for that man. If i could of cos i'll finish the project. I've tried to. I don't think i deserve his despisal just because i didn't finish the project.

major happenings in Sept

2005-09-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

The month of september is the month of rushing. First 2 weeks of september is just delicated to my cs3266 project...~poor me. Although besides rushing for project there isn't much happenings, there are still few major ones.

Kaili's birthday celebration
Kaili's birthday party is just 2 days from my first project dateline. I was doing project in school till 7pm then rush off to her birthday party. It's quite awkward to go in alone, so i ask wanlin to meet me at the bus stop and we go in together. Concidently, we both wore pink colour top. When we went in everyone was like "Wow, qing lu zhuang" and everyone was laughing don't know like what. After that it's the usually fooling around part in party, nothing special until this.....

When Kaili was about to cut the cake, Terrence just arrived and the guys was as usual trying to tackle the latecomer. While Kaili was cutting the cake, Lei Ming was wrestling with terrence so Mei Xian suggest to take a photo of them and post it online(just joking), but none of us brought camera. However, wanling was holding on to one that belongs to Kaili's poly friend. She really was trying to photo them, Meixian then said to her "that's not our camera", but wanlin ignored her and continue to adjust the angles. Then si yun say "the camera belongs to somebody else" in louder voice, but wanlin still ignore her. Until she took the photo and the owner of the camera say"you need to email you the photo", wanlin then had a shock and was so embarrass that she face turn red and we were all laughing at her(come to think of it, we are so bad).

After that around 9 plus i went to campus to finish my project...poor me

Wanlin's birthday celebration

On that day we are suppose to meet at 12.30 and then to her by bringing her to the make-over studio. But that day was my project dateline plus 2 assignment due, so i was rushing for my last touch-up for my project and finishing my assignment. I manage to finish everything and rush down to her birthday celebration at 5pm. When i reach there she haven't finish her make-up filming. She was really gorgeous after her make-up. It was totally different from the wanlin that we know. Her mother didn't recognise her, but pretended to have seen her and act calm. lol...

My CS2261 lab test 1
I was really scare that day cos i didn't prepare for the test. At the last part, the lecture had additionaly request, that was like 15 mins from the finishing time. I was practically panicking inside cos i only half way done. But i managed to stay calm to finish typing the code for the test. When i was testing my code, i found that mine code doesn't work for the additional request. This time i was really panicking inside and outside cos i haven't been doing java for half a yr and i couldn't think in terms of java, luckily the guy sitting beside me helped me.~phew...I managed to scrape through this test.

Meixian's birthday celebration
We had dinner at the pizza hut at PS. After that we went to watch "The longest yard". It was a pretty nice movie. It was so funny that all of us( wanlin, kaili, meixian, ziahao and me) was laughing from the beginning to the end of the show. This entry was written just after i reached home...=P

updates

2005-08-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

This week has been a busy week...

Firstly, i had 3 tuition sessions with my nephew this week. 1 make-up session, 1 offical tuition session and 1 extra session for revision for his upcoming CA. On top of that, i gave his sister tuition too. I realized how difficult it is to set questions when i was setting math questions for them to do. It can neither be too easy nor too difficult. What a headache~! I'm going to have another extra session with them on monday. hai~ so tiring!

Secondly, i have been going out this week. All these outings are in bugis...lol.. The first one is with xin yee, a nice girl that i met when i took my chinese studies module, we went to buy gifts for her friend's b'day and i shopped a shirt too...That outing was a bit rush 'cos i have to join my family for dinner. So we were rushing like mad. The outing is still enjoyable though. The second one is with si qiao. We went to shop for school bag...Both of us bought and new bag.. and we wore them to school the very next day..heehee..The third one was with my eldest sis, she went to shop for beach wear. Then we have dinner with her ex-colleagues. They said that i looked like my sis's elder sis than younger sis....I looked that old meh??

Thirdly, Me and Si qiao were busy planning our timetable. Also, next week is the start of tutorials...So i was busying preparing for the tutorials especially for my jap..have to memorize the Hiragana and the kaiwa and the vocabs...how stressful~! Then i have to start preparing for my computing projects...so afraid that i can't cope with so many things...i guess i have wait and see how it goes...the most i'll tell my cousin that i really can't continue the tuition....Hope that i won't have to do so...

Concluding my week: it has been a busy but fun week. Have to cut down on my spendings...bought quite some things in a week =P...

concluding my vacation

2005-08-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

This has been my most enjoyable holiday in my Uni days. This is contributed by you, you and you - my dear friends. Thank you! You guys for making my vacation such a wonderful one.

People come and go in my life, but you guys( Shu hui, Maggy, Pat, Wan'er and Mei Xian) have been here with me all this while. I really treasure our friendships. Although we didn't meet up as often, your effort in keeping in touch with me is appreciated. Hope we will continue to stay this way.

This has also been my most fruitful vacation. I have met many nice people when i was working in Creative. I have also learnt a lot of things there. I'm happy that i have made more good friends like hong yan, jia hui and jie ying.

Once and again thank you, guys.

strange people

2005-08-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

My 2nd sis won the monpoly game today....though she has to split the winning with another 10 person...to me it's like one of my family members won something i share her happiness. But when i tell my eldest sis...she's like splashing cold water onto me...extinguished my excitedness and the happiness i felt for my 2nd sis...she said that "you so happy for what? you are not the one who won..." that moment i feel sad for my eldest sis...what changed their relationship and made it so worthless to even feel happy for your own sis when she won a prize... I pity her for she doesn't know how to care and forgive others anymore...what can i say..they are really strange people.....however i think i also have this cold trait in me...but not when i facing my family members...don't understand why pple can be so cold to your own family members, moreover she is your twin...i feel sad for them

enlightenment

2005-07-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

damn tired....worked O.T. today....work till 9 plus....on my way home i was thinking of whether to take taxi or not....so i decided to walk towards the bus-stop if the bus come first then i'll take bus, vice versa....actually i was hoping to taxi will come first...lol

well, in the end i took a taxi. Dunno why the first impression the taxi driver gave me was that very pressurising....on our way to my house he asked me about my work and my studies....we talked about computing...i'm not looking down on him that i tried to use mandrian for every technical term we came across but i know he's not good in english...he was telling me to speak freely he can understand the terms...he really do...

finally he asked me about my opinion on IT...it might seem very easy to answer such question esp. when i'm a computing student...but he answer is the amazing one...he told me my concept is wrong...i complicated stuff...computing has always revolving around the concept that exist 20 years ago and never changed...that moment i realized it too...we tend to complicate things...such a simple logic yet it was always overlooked by us...we should make seemily difficult concept into simple one not the other way round....Tonight is a fruitful night.....

Science Centre Trip

2005-07-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

It has been don't know how long since my last trip to science centre.....8 years? 9 years? I've already lost count. If not for my sister i don't ever go to science in near future....Hai~ no choice she asked me to go cos we are bringing my 2 nephews, Edwy and Ervin, with us. They are the reason for this trip.

Now then i know it's so tiring to kids out. Ervin's interest in new things vanishes so fast that b4 i can finish explaining the logic to him, he ran to next station. He so energetic that i had a hard time looking after him.. My sis looking after Edwy is more relaxing cos Edwy is easier to look after. However, in the end it seems that i'm more involved in trying out the games than both of my nephews...lol

Relieved

2005-07-23T01:27:00.000+08:00

Me and Si Qiao more or less settled our modules for this semester. Phew~ But I still kind of feel stress about it cos i've got quite some projects this semester plus i'm going to take jap language this semester i am afraid that i can' t cope with the workload...I know, I know, you guys will tell to relax don't stress myself too much... I will take your advice don't worry... I'll be fine

Anyway, I'm relieved that i've settled this module choosing thinggy. The rest I'll take a step at a time...cheers

Yee Siang's b'day

2005-07-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

Went to Sake Sushi with and jc classmates to celebrate one of them's b'day, that is , Yee Siang's b'day. It has been quite some time since a big group of us came out to have a/an dinner/event. For Kelvin's b'day that time he only invited some of us, in fact only 10 of us. As all of us know, there is bound be have some pple disliking others. I actually feel more comfortable at Yee Siang's b'day celebration. I was so lame lor...Whatever Qi Jun or Chin Yi says i'll go with them...That make me one of the lamest few for the dinner part. Gibert and Yi Ru was playing 猜拳. I grasp the idea but i didn't play cos i know my reaction is too slow to play with the pros....lol..The best two person is still Qijun and Chin Yi, their bet was wasabe. Chin Yi ate 2 scope of it and Qi Jun 1. They were pretty mad....I guess b'day celebration should be some sort like this which is so rowdy.

After dinner, we went to the void deck to cut the cake. The same old thing cutting the cake play around abit with jokes, lame ones. Going home after this cutting and eating cake thinggy. Overall, i enjoyed this b'day celebration.

frustrated

2005-07-20T15:25:00.000+08:00

I'm so frustrated....Don't know what modules to take in the coming semester....Don't know whether i should take my fyp this semester and leaving another module,cs3266, to the next semester or should i take the other module this sem and take the fyp in my last semester...but there is a notice from nus saying that we graduating students should take cs3266 in the first semester....on the other hand, my friend told me that most likely most of the singaporean students will be taking fyp this semester... If i don't take it this semester i'll be at the losing end when the next semester this module is full of foreigner students. And another friend suggest that if i haven't found enough people to form a team then i shouldn't take this modules because the lecture is gg to match and mix those who haven't form a team. This means that my group might have those who don't even know a thing about jsp, a requirement to do well in fyp, and i, myself, only knew very tiny little bit about jsp. I'm really worried about my fyp......and this thing is making me headache...all my good mood is gone....sucks...

不吐不快

2005-07-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

刚刚才发觉原来当一个人心里不高兴，难受时,就算是看了好看的电视剧。在笑了笑过后，心里不像平时那样会保持着那份高兴。心里依然感到闷闷的。

dinner with shui hui and maggy

2005-07-16T13:11:00.000+08:00

I went out with shuhui and maggy yesterday. We had dinner at Spaghetti. It was an indulgence. We chatted throughout the dinner and even took some photos. Even though i don't like to take photos but i wouldn't mind taking some with my good friends. After that we went walk around and settled down at taka's coffe bean. Maggy and i were talking about yi shu's novel. Shuhui was a bit left out cos she doesn't read yi shu's novel...Sorry shu hui we sort of left you out. Left about 9 plus 10 cos maggy is meeting her friend. That's all for the night.

yuan xiong's birthday

2005-07-09T02:37:00.000+08:00

Tonight was an extraordinary happy night. Meet so many old friends, even rosaline was there. We were like reminiscing our secondary school days. All the memories came back me. I've always thought that there wasn't much to remember about secondary cos nothing much really happen, but tonight i realised that this is not true. There is so much to remember about one of the happiest days in my life. I recalled rosaline always telling me "委恬，这么办？不会做leh" when we are doing maths and i'll reply “等我做好先。” =) How can i forget that...

Later in the night, lei ming they all suggested to go watch movie " The Fanastic 4". In the end we didn't get to see the movie and went to MacDonalds to chat. We continued to chat but now got the guys joined in. Nonetheless, they were like they weren't there in a world of their own. Anyway we are used to it already. Pity lei ming kana shoot by me everytime he says something....lol....Always correcting his chinese....

We stayed until about 2 am. Me and shuhui and meixian then share cab home. What a wonderful night.

shocked

2005-07-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

I was so shocked when my sis told me that she broke up with her bf. She said she had waited too long for his proposal. Now she already doesn't feel like marrying him. She said she have sort of realized that there's more to life. She wanted a fresh start for herself. She, herself was pretty unsure what she's thinking. Hai~ can't help her in these sort of things. But in my opinion she bf was good to her. He's a pretty good guy, quite good-tempered. I often sort of lecture him but always smile never really take it to heart.

He put in a lot effort in realising his promise to my sis. The last time my sis broke up with him. He promised my sis a number of things in order for my sis to give him another chance. Now, he has achieved most of it but still my sis has already gave up on him. Hai~ feel bad for him.

There are a lot bad examples around me that made me cannot fathom love even more than b4. Is it b'cos we humans are getting more complicated that's why our relationship is more likely to fail than in the past? I think we got to reflect more on myself.

wonderful day

2005-07-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

Met up with shuhui today. We went to Tiong Bharu for dinner and watched "War of the Worlds". The sound effect was very loud and the atmosphere in the theater was really tense. I actually can feel what's in the movie. And that was scary. Can't imagine what if really aliens are attacking the earth. Though there's not much of a story plot but the movie is still not bad.

Really enjoyed myself though i have to worry abt can i catch the last bus. We talked so much about our past sem. Did a lot of catching up with each other. We also talked about Wan'er. I was quite worried abt her. Hope that i'll able to arrange a dinner with her *planning*.

combining a week's blog

2005-07-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

Last week was my company's yr end cum month end closing... I was very busy from time to time...i even forgot my meeting with su qin and wanlin last monday....felt very tired by the time i reach home..after watching tv i went to sleep le. So no time to online...

This is the first week after hong yan left....We ( me and other 5 colleagues and hong yan) went to eat steamboat after working on hong yan's last day. It's sort of a farewell party for hong yan and me( in advance). I enjoyed the dinner very well. We talked and laugh and eat all the way. My voice even turn hoarse the next day, a side-effect of laughing too much.....It very quiet and was a bit unused to the quietness in office. But i soon got used to it.

Although working filled my holidays, but i realise i don't have time to prepare for the next sem. I haven't even think about what modules to take... I have to have better time management. I'm learning how to hard code web-page. Hope i can learn it soon.

nearly had an accident

2005-06-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

I was tripped when i was cross the road, on my way home, just now. I lost my momentum and tumbled off the road. Luckily, there were not cars at that time. Otherwise, you guys might not see me again...Thinking of it, i felt myself soaked in cold sweat....

shopping

2005-06-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

went shopping today with my sis....bought a watch. I like it so much, my sis bought it for me :) but this is the only thing bought...i wanted to buy jeans, the design i like don't have my size..sob sob... got to go other places see if they have.
Spent a lot of money this month got to reduce spending le..else no money left...but i still got a lot of thing i want to buy...how????

YES 933 龙虎榜爆唱会

2005-06-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

went to YES 933 龙虎榜爆唱会 just now...i felt old after seeing most of the crowd are sec school students - those mei mei...after standing for a few hours my body is aching. Nonetheless, i still enjoyed the concert and the company of my friend,xin yee(nus), and her friend. She was so excited when F.I.R was performing and commenting that i was so not excited....hee hee...Anyway, glad that i went.

hong yan not leaving....hooray

2005-06-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

I have this colleague her name is hong yan...she is 1 year younger than me, a very cute and funny gal..she always made me laugh....and spoil my image in front of my boss...lol...my boss after seeing me laughing so hard..she commented that i was xiao xiao( in the joking tone )...cos we are temp replacing the perm who are coming much later in the month so when the perm came we are suppose to leave. So there is one perm coming next mon and my boss told hong yan that her contract will end next week...this is a bad news, qing tian pi li, to me..i am going to miss her company...she had made my day in the office easy. Today, my boss's boss told her that the month end accounting is forwarded by a week and therefore, hong yan's stay will be extanded....so happy that she is staying until July....yeah

有感而发

2005-06-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

有人说我其实是个很简单的人。太简单了所以常常让人觉得我很复杂。我想我的确很简单但也很复杂。所以我又了解另一个道理。问题在别人看来总是很简单，而在自己眼中总是很复杂。

Mr. and Mrs. Smith

2005-06-09T14:25:00.000+08:00

Went to movie with huihan, LJ, gibert, yee siang and qi jun just now. Finally watched the movie i wanted to watch "Mr. and Mrs. Smith". It was a nice show, humorous....really like it. However, i had this weird feeling lingering in me during this gathering. I felt like i was drifting apart from them. I'm really upset by such feeling.

突然的领悟

2005-06-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

我总觉得人是因为不完美而完美，不是为追求完美而变得不完美。可是，我不明白为什么人们都不明白这个道理。。。。

new start

2005-06-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

This is my first trying to write a blog...I've been thinking to start a blog yet i haven't been doing so is because i don't really feel comfortable to let others view my thoughts and feelings....Hope this is a new start for me...daring to try out new things